So - my fourth working again, on Monday I came back from my holiday. Sardinia was the total relaxation - it was too hot to do much about anything or about to come up with the idea to make sport. As far as I can tell, my heart problems are hardly felt no longer up. The commute so between imagination and real "pain" or feeling of pressure. The investigation with an MRI on 19 August will hopefully result in that the inflammation is gone and I can once again "normal" life. "Normal" life is back to sport to start slowly and to think not at all whether the effort is now or not.
Much more important is the appointment on Monday - three months have gone by then, since I finished the therapy. I have to - especially since I'm back from vacation - think about it every day, what if the therapy would have had no success. My mood fluctuates between total optimism and pessimism. When I think of it, I'm already an increased heart rate. How bad it is until next week waiting for the result? I hope that the rush in the lab this time - sometimes the values were already 10 days after acceptance, but it has sometimes taken to three weeks - please do not! The pressure and stress are still quite high. I believe that only with me but the announcement of the results is really aware of how high the pressure actually is or was. I try as far as it not to get crazy, but that's of course easier said than done.
my body, it is by now very well - from the many side effects pure is nothing to feel. I feel this is so specifically in the last four weeks. Prior to that - that's clear to me now - I had the ordeal has not put away completely. There were still feel weak side effects - for example, in my condition. This could of course be due to the heart muscle inflammation - I do not know and will probably never know what Affliction is due to what.
important thing is that my form is increasing, though my mind is suffering because of the impending appointment. So - breathe deeply again, I'll get back when I got the results.
